Keep Calm & Play Animal Crossing

  I've had a very troubling past few weeks, I hope all of you have been doing well. I've been drinking way more than I should be, and in doing so, I've been incredibly cranky during my sober moments. I've also been abusing amphetamines and opiates, and it took watching Walk the Line (the Johnny Cash movie) to get me to realize how drug abuse can really hurt my friends. Although I'm not going quite cold turkey, I'm going to try to limit my drug and alcohol use for the time being in order to keep happier and healthier.
  Last night, I found out some troubling news about my boyfriend, which caused me to end things with him. I feel incredibly hurt and betrayed, and I was very tempted to drink my feelings away. I stayed sober for the evening, which was probably the best decision I could have made. I feel maybe I'll only drink for fun now, not to numb my problems. I've also very recently quit smoking cigarettes, which made my life hell. It does not make you look cool. It does not take the stress away. It only adds further stress into your life by becoming addicted to a literal cancer stick. I'm so glad I've had the courage to knock such bad habits, and I encourage all of you facing the same troubles I am to kick them, too.
  On a lighter note, I've been kind of obsessed with the Animal Crossing soundtrack. I found some great 8Tracks playlists (1, 2) featuring Animal Crossing songs, so I highly recommend you check them out. You can check out my latest Tumblr project though, the CalmingCorner, where I've posted both of them. It's a new idea of mine to create a "safe place" type Tumblr where people going through panic attacks, crying sessions, or general fits of anxiety or anger can go to calm down. There aren't many posts right now, but I hope to post more when I get home from school in order to help those in need.

  That was a lot of pictures, I know, but they were pretty, so shh. I've been going toward this light pink/blue pale vibe lately, and a lot of these pictures totally follow it. I love it, don't hate! (haters gonna hate hate hate hate hate...)  I don't really know how to close this post, so just... enjoy your weekend, lovelies!

A Clockwork Pyscho

  The past few weeks, I've been having trouble keeping in touch with reality. Popping pills, smoking, tripping.. I don't know what is real anymore. I believe I've lost contact with the real world; I'd much prefer daydreaming in my own little world, where everything is happy in my mind. I see things that aren't there, I hear things that didn't sound, I feel false feelings.. I'm a mess, and I love it. I feel like a fluid cloud, bubbling and floating on to distances and realities that aren't there.

  Lately I've been into this early 90's shoegaze band named Slowdive. I'm not typically into them, but their songs "Alison," "Crazy For You," and especially their demo "Summer Daze" fill me with chills of nostalgia for a decade I barely belonged in. Summer Daze is especially haunting, and because I learned it on guitar yesterday, I feel even more freaky. Take a look at some of the songs that've been influencing me in a drug-filled craze this week:

Summer Daze by Slowdive (Demo)
Heroin by the Velvet Underground
Shangri-La by Electric Light Orchestra (The last minute or so of this song is so intense, it gives me chills. It is amazing when you're high!)
Maureen by the Beatles (Demo) (The link is to a video from my Youtube account :)
Vienna by Billy Joel
Music for the Funeral of Queen Mary/Title Music from a Clockwork Orange
In the Room Where You Sleep by Dead Man's Bones (This was in The Conjuring, and I've loved it ever since I saw it. Great movie, I highly recommend it)
Alison by Slowdive
The Court of the Crimson King by King Crimson
Life on Mars? by David Bowie

I Believe in ELO

  I'm going to come right out and say it- I've been taking a lot of drugs lately. I've been doing so well in school (high honors, go me!), I got a boyfriend, and my life is just.. great. It sounds awful, but everything is great thanks to drugs. I am NOT in the mood to be yelled at by people who say drugs are bad and all that, I know it's bad, but.. God, I have been on cloud nine lately. THAT BEING SAID, can we just discuss how much I love Electric Light Orchestra? ELO are this electronic rock borderline "pop" band that sounds like how I think space looks. They are fucking INCREDIBLE. Anyone who disagrees has not heard the magic of ELO. 

  I go through these little phases with bands I love where I take one of their songs, realize how great it is, listen to it 24/7, then get sick of it and repeat the cycle. Right now it's "Turn to Stone," and it is brilliant. Normally I'm not one to like commercial-sounding, upbeat pop songs, but "Turn to Stone" is so much more than that. Just listen to it and tell me the chorus doesn't make you want to jump up and sing at the top of your lungs. 

  Sing my school blocked 8tracks, here's a few links to some of my favorite ELO songs:

1. Mr. Blue Sky
2. Telephone Lines (This is in that Steve Buscemi scene of Billy Madison and it's what I think of whenever I hear it, ahha.)
3. Strange Magic
4. Turn to Stone
5. Don't Bring Me Down
6. And here's their Greatest Hits album in case you have a bunch of time to kill

 I've also been obsessing about space. For some reason whenever I'm high I just love talking about space and the solar system. Okay, enjoy and have a super duper day!