Even though that was a pointless and maybe even stupid story, it got me thinking. Such a little thing like that can knock someone down for the rest of the day. I try to keep my confidence up in a certain system; if I do three embarrassing things in one day, then I deserve to be upset. But two or less, and I need to learn to suck it up. Unfortunately for me, spilling the Cheerios was strike three. I'd already placed my bag down at the (quote on quote) "popular girls" table in the morning before homeroom, resulting in me quickly scurrying away red-faced, and I'd practically cried in art class because the wire we were working on kept pricking me and I felt dizzy. Spilling the Cheerios is downright going to be the downfall of my day. They were so delicious, and now they're in the trash can across the room, mocking me.
Even as a kid, I knew I didn't want to fit in with everyone else. I believe I've discussed this before, maybe? (EDIT: I did, here) I liked old-fashioned things, different kinds of music, and artwork. Most kids I knew just liked hanging out with friends and goofing around. At first I thought that maybe I was simply maturing faster than they were. I had heard that girls matured faster than boys and at the time this was ridiculously true- it still is, even now. But I still like many things other people, even my closest friends don't like. It's gotten to the point where my only friend is the internet, because everyone there seems to like the same things I do. As I've discussed before, I'm an introvert, and proud. I'm not being "antisocial," like my parents say- okay, well maybe I am. But it's not because I'm afraid of making friends or whatever they're concerned about. I just like being by myself, and I prefer the company of music and fine arts to people.
|Source Unknown; I'd rather talk to a skeleton, too, groovy late 60's girl.|
|Sylvia Plath, Source|
- "Unused Piano Theme from 'Quadrophenia' Demo" by Pete Townshend (Later into the song, you can hear him humming! It's adorable.)
- "Walk on the Wild Side" by Lou Reed
- "I'm Sick of You" by Iggy Pop
- "Remember (Walkin' in the Sand)" by the Shangri-Las
- "Trouble" by Cat Stevens
- "There is a Light that Never Goes Out" by The Smiths
- "Arnold Layne" by Pink Floyd
- "Sick as a Dog" by Aerosmith
If you like this post, try:
The Power of Negative Thinking, by Rookiemag
Arielle Gavin's "Honesty Competitions" by BonjourgirlNaomi's Diary Entry for May 30, 2012 by Rookiemag